Bit random for subject and title, but hey, that is exactly what I am doing.
Reason: I am seeing a therapist, because my emotions are in hyper drive. Especially when I am upset. I also have been more upset lately which makes me upset.
-Husband did not pay his taxes AGAIN. One of my very first blog posts, years ago. A different feeling to it now.
-my little baby girl is now an adult and is running off to be an adult! Graduating college, Highschool and off to AIT for the military. Empty nest? A little. But better to go off an adult than smoke pot in the non existing basement.
-small car wreck. Not my fault, and very minor and lucky. It could have been a lot worse.
-selling the house my husband and I own that has been rented out for 7 years. A little sad, but selling to the renters who are good beans. Then the profits will go to a new roof on the barn I live in. That project is probably even more stressful. Hiring out for it though.
These are the big hitters.
My therapist says I am very self aware. I am experiencing grief, but have a good cycle to cope with it. Says she saw me go thru it several times as we were talking.
One of the interesting things she said, near the end of the session.
“Where do you put your grief or anger?” I can’t remember which she said specifically, and that is interesting in its own way.
I had to think. Where does it go or what do I do with it? When it is not coloring or effecting me, or so it does not effect me?
I do something new
I take pictures.
Sometimes all of these together.
She said. “What could be interesting is creating a timeline in pictures. Of your life. Abandoned picture here. One year old you. Flower here 5 year old you. You don’t actually have to do it, but the thought is interesting.”
Why yes. Yes it is.
After the session I was talking to my friend about what the therapist said and she says, “Go take some pictures when your mad and then go take pictures when you are happy, see if they are different.”
Ok. Good idea also.
Boundaries, buckets, self awareness and soothing.
Thanks for reading. No pictures this time…